Tuesday, November 25, 2008


I haven't written in here in a while. I've honestly sat down five times or so trying to write down my thoughts. Hopefully I actually post something this time around. I'm not even sure where my mind is right now, but I must admit, things are getting better or maybe I'm just getting used to it all and freely living...

It's funny... how life turns out. How things progress. How moving one step forward can easily lead to taking another two steps back. How growing up can lead to acting even more childish than before.

I think of you. I stop. Then I relapse even worse than before.
I learn, but the next course only makes you feel like I'm further behind.

It's a cycle... it's keep me on my toes.

All the street lights glowing happen to be just like moments passing in front of me, so I hopped in the cab and I paid my fair, see I know my destination, but I'm just not there in the streets...

I've been hearing this concept of one's meant to be. And the concept of love. Everyone has their own definition of love and their own moment of falling in and out of love. I'm surrounded by romantics and I'm definitely not one of them, but it makes me think, maybe my concept and expectations of love are much greater than the average guy or girl. Maybe I just think that there should be something more than there already has been before. Maybe I just want more. I like to look at it as a good thing though.

So I just came back from my trip to San Francisco. How I love that place... but as I was there, I tried to picture myself living there, starting a career, making new friends, etc. I couldn't really see myself living there as much as I miss SF and love that damn place... I just don't think its the place for me right now. So I definitely need to go on my trip to LA to see how that pans out. I could see myself in Seattle, but finding a job around here doesn't look so bright... damn hiring freezes.

I'll write again sooner and hopefully I'll have more to say...

Quick notes:
- FASA Formal was legit. Not necessarily the dance itself, but the moments outside smoking, at the bar at Dupus and just the people I was around. It was fun... good times.
- Wiley Night. A little too much for me... haha but it was awesome. Me and Jomel held hands because we really thought we'd die in that car ride and well... I seriously would've cried.
- Kanye's new one - not bad, still listening... we'll see. I really like one song though... Street Lights.
- How I Met Your Mother, I've really fallen in love with that show...!
- Planning my trip to Europe is making me super excited, it'll be the most amazing time ever. I know it.
- I love warm laundry!! :)

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Geek Goddess, my Ass.

Geek Goddess.

What a ridiculous book... how to be a Geek Goddess... with fashion and style or whatever.

This book is what is wrong with societal views of women in technology fields.

I think what the problem is the view that people have of computers and technology in general.... its use, its need...

I like to think of computers and other types of technology as a medium to express other points of interest. Yes, it is a fact or possibly just an observation that this technological world sometimes gets overused and we are getting quite comfortable, but with technology comes new information and changes to societal views.

Not only in the world today, but throughout history.

The monks created "clocks" in order to pray to God at specific times. Someone brought the idea of the clock out of the walls of the monastery and now we all live on time, not to pray to God, but to get to work, go to school, etc. It changed the way we live as humans.

The style of teaching has changed tremendously. Teachers were first paid based on the amount of students they would have and would not hand out grades, but give true insight to each student and his or her work in order to be smarter, wiser, etc. Then came this one guy, I can't remember his name, but he wanted more money from his teaching, so he developed a way that he could have more students, which also meant less time with each student. He created the idea of grades, a new technology that definitely changed the way that teachers teach and students learn.

I think the most important thing about technology isn't how to be fashionable or stylish, but to remember how society was before and after. To know how it changes yourself and others.